че думали на русском будет? Учитесь английскому, лошки. Да и читать тут слишком много.... Тяжело. Не осилил. Sorry didn't read.

you are interested in reading about who i am? You truly care huh?
well


who am i?Rei 零.
Who is rei? Rei is rei and Nothing more.

in short:

mentally unstable and ill, depressed, lonely, have family issues, attachment issues, desperate for love and affection.

what i do:
wasting time and rotting away in my 20s, (or how old am i at the time you are reading this), without a job because of mental health. letting my delusions give me some happiness in my life. suffering from my own mind. Being my owns prisoner. doing stuff that interest me. Existing. being constantly kicked when already down. Clowning around. Making mods, music,art,videos,memes.

interests:
kei, seeing kei in my dreams, making arts/doodles/sprite edits, making videos, making memes, music and making it, making my own lore and characters, playing games, being a clown, watching videos/films/series/anime, making mods, listening to alot of different music, making music in my own head hoping i will someday learn to make it real like many other things, shidposting, shizoposting, talking too much, knowing too much, not talking too much, not knowing too much, making many different ideas, Project Moon, many games, and many more things


in longer details:





diagnosed paranoid shizophrenic with apathic-abulia syndrome (апатико-абулический синдром)
anxious, hysteric, depressed, with voices and intrusive thoughts clown. Ptsd and some other stuff in this hell of boquette.
emetophobic.
being a clown is my coping mechanism that is not controlled by me.
I want freedom of seeing and hearing what i prefer.
I am cultist of my own opinion. Not that i deny other.
potencial man in many ways: artist, youtuber, music artist and etc. If only my illness would let me develop it all.
I argue lot due to mental problems and life being bad oftenly.
You can always try to talk with me. Many people find me interesting until they all abandon me due to how shiddyy i am sometimes. And be careful if you feel like im provoking. Its not under my control most of the time. And im contradicting alot sometimes. I saw too many things and know too many things, and i think too much. I may behave how i didn't wanted to. Its out of my control often. Sorry or not sorry.
Or if you want to play some games - im always up for that. I love playing games with others. It saves my sanity and helps. And i know many games and play many games.

I have my own company of clowns named " Circov' " (⛪church+circus🎪) which i play with often. We mainly speak russian and only few people can join it so if you think you fit - ask (nvm its now open). Someday even if i will not be lazy i will make videos cuz i have alot of material already of our gaming
my discord is reithetrap if needed.
My telegram channel where i shi-d/zo-post and post art (theres telegram chat link in the first post) [t.me]
and this is my server [discord.gg]
vk group of circov with our chat (thoe dont post anymore kinda and moved to tg) [vk.com]
YT channel


i dislike most feminine woman or man. I mostly like masculine woman. But depends on personality all. The looks is not only what defines one.
i dislike lgbt and furries. Sorry but its just my opinion. My and my only.
i dislike lust and erotic ♥♥♥♥. I have triggers on it for some reasons that feels like its delusions. But strangely im very right about it all.

im trying to find my love. I need it. It is what saves me to live longer and happier. I cant survive on my own and stand the loneliness.

random ♥♥♥♥: i like clown style, gothic, militaristic, traditional/feodal japanese and maybe some more. Also - i like prescription glasses. They make person look better.
i love project moon universe. I like bloodfiends and sweepers.
i like to play as berserk and prefer melee.
i hate playing solo. I like cooperation.
i dislike toxic enviroments. I am trying to get better and take control over my aggresion after all.




Cursed Contradicting Circus Chaos.