че думали на русском будет? Учитесь английскому, лошки. Да и читать тут слишком много.... Тяжело. Не осилил. Sorry didn't read.

you are interested in reading about who i am? You truly care huh?
well


who am i?Rei 嵐 .
Who is rei? Rei is rei and Nothing more.

in short:

mentally unstable and ill without help and support from professionals for multiple years, depressed, lonely, have family issues, attachment issues, desperate for love and affection.

what i do:
wasting time and rotting away in my 20s, (or how old am i at the time you are reading this), without a job because of mental health. letting my delusions give me some happiness in my life. suffering from my own mind. Being my owns prisoner. doing stuff that interest me. living in misery, hatred, depression and short rare moments of hapiness. being constantly kicked when already down.

interests:
kei, seeing kei in my dreams, making arts/doodles/sprite edits, making videos, making memes, making my own lore and characters, playing games, arguing online/being a clown, watching videos/films/series/anime, making mods, listening to alot of different music, making music in my own head hoping i will someday learn to make it real like many other things, shidposting, shizoposting, talking too much, knowing too much, not talking too much, not knowing too much, making many different ideas, Project Moon, many games, and many more things


in longer details:





diagnosed paranoid shizophrenic with apathic-abulia syndrome (апатико-абулический синдром)
anxious, hysteric, depressed, with voices and intrusive thoughts clown
emetophobic.
being a clown is my coping mechanism
I want freedom of seeing what i want.
I am cultist of my own opinion.
potencial man in many ways: artist, youtuber, music artist and etc. If only avolition would let me develop it all.
I argue lot due to mental problems
You can always try to talk with me. But try to interest me first if you want a good talk. Many people find me interesting until they all abandon me due to how shiddyy i am sometimes. And be careful if you feel like im provoking. Its not under my control most of the time. And im contradicting alot sometimes. I saw too many things and know too many things, and i think too much. I may behave how i didn't wanted to. Its out of my control often. Sorry or not sorry.
Or if you want to play some games - im always up for that. I love playing games with others. It saves my sanity and helps. And i know many games and play many games.

I have my own company of clowns named " Circov' " (⛪church+circus🎪) which i play with often. We mainly speak russian and only few people can join it so if you think you fit - ask (nvm its now open). Someday even if i will not be lazy i will make videos cuz i have alot of material already of our gaming
my discord is reithetrap if needed.
My telegram channel where i shi-d/zo-post and post art (theres telegram chat link in the first post) [t.me]
and this is my server [discord.gg]
vk group of circov with our chat (thoe dont post anymore kinda and moved to tg) [vk.com]
YT channel


i dislike most feminine woman or man. I mostly like masculine woman. But depends on personality all
i dislike lgbt and furries.
i dislike lust and erotic ♥♥♥♥

im trying to find my love. I need it

random ♥♥♥♥: i like clown style, gothic, militaristic, traditional japanese and maybe some more. Also - i like prescription glasses. They make person look better.




Cursed Contradicting Circus Chaos.