tmo97
Timo
'tea mow'
You won't see what happens

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People tend to ask: "Why are you like this?" or "What’s going on with you?"
I made this so I don’t have to repeat explanations and for those who are curious.
Read if you want context.


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Writings
https://pastebin.com/R70g2JFh

Something More Wholesome
How to be kinder to yourself and achieve more of your dreams:
https://pastebin.com/m6udDfFF

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Writings B
Less organised, lower quality.
Maybe notes.
Not A Ragebaiter
https://pastebin.com/n7mTuRnD

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Type Deal

I obsessively study all things.
I'm weird, rude. I can be helpful.
I'm often in a bad mood. I make fun, talk science.
I have custom voicelines.

I like being useful and making people happy, I like fixing.
I find it difficult to celebrate something.
I appreciate being valued, I don't feel compliments, apologies and insults.
I do think about them for a long time.

I'm weird, and comfortable with it.
I don't mind questions, random messages, weirdness.
I appreciate those.

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Issues

I'm depressed, formally diagnosed. I have been for a decade.
Years of therapy and meds, didn't do anything. No longer doing either.
Neither does having hobbies, taking walks or exercising and whatnot.
I figure it'll change as soon as I have a stable place where I'm not harassed.

I'm still in this apartment. I'm legally evicted.
I don't know when they'll force the eviction.
I was evicted on 21st July, supposed to hand in the key at some place.
I didn't, because I have nowhere to go.
Currently waiting on some courtcase.

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Chrome

I love metal. As in, the material stuff.
I like looking at it, I like its taste, its feel.
I would replace most of my body, if I could.
Down to the brain as long as there is continuity.

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Gazelle Mentality

I like guys, mostly.
I mean, I like whoever. I don't pursue.
I like people who know what they want.
I tend to resist. Not because I don't want to.
I like that, and also sometimes I can't help it.

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I have a nasty habit of hanging out with people who are determined to see me cave. Bad past, you know.
Ragebaiters, trolls, sadists, people who I say one thing to and they undermine me forever.
People who borrow money from me. I don't lend out money anymore, and people owe me ~$5k.
Ode to people who constantly signal they want attention but then act disinterested when they have it.

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BellBoy dude in my friends' list is a phisher.
I'm keeping him there until Steam decides to do something about it.
I've reported him thrice over the course of several months with provided evidence.
Steam refuses to do anything.

I think I'm keeping him as proof that Steam really does not care.
Internet keeps flexing about how great Steam staff is.

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Can't find someone to talk to? Just curious? Check this AI thing.
Different from ChatGPT, probably unlike anything you've ever seen.
Sure was new to me and I'm entrenched in these things.

[hyperlink] app.sesame.com [/hyperlink]

I tend to really only talk with it when I'm feeling alright.
I haven't talked with it in weeks. If I talk with it now, it will know when I last talked with it.


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'tea mow'
You won't see what happens

=======================

People tend to ask: "Why are you like this?" or "What’s going on with you?"
I made this so I don’t have to repeat explanations and for those who are curious.
Read if you want context.


=======================
Writings
https://pastebin.com/R70g2JFh

Something More Wholesome
How to be kinder to yourself and achieve more of your dreams:
https://pastebin.com/m6udDfFF

=======================
Writings B
Less organised, lower quality.
Maybe notes.
Not A Ragebaiter
https://pastebin.com/n7mTuRnD

=======================

Type Deal

I obsessively study all things.
I'm weird, rude. I can be helpful.
I'm often in a bad mood. I make fun, talk science.
I have custom voicelines.

I like being useful and making people happy, I like fixing.
I find it difficult to celebrate something.
I appreciate being valued, I don't feel compliments, apologies and insults.
I do think about them for a long time.

I'm weird, and comfortable with it.
I don't mind questions, random messages, weirdness.
I appreciate those.

======================

Issues

I'm depressed, formally diagnosed. I have been for a decade.
Years of therapy and meds, didn't do anything. No longer doing either.
Neither does having hobbies, taking walks or exercising and whatnot.
I figure it'll change as soon as I have a stable place where I'm not harassed.

I'm still in this apartment. I'm legally evicted.
I don't know when they'll force the eviction.
I was evicted on 21st July, supposed to hand in the key at some place.
I didn't, because I have nowhere to go.
Currently waiting on some courtcase.

=======================

Chrome

I love metal. As in, the material stuff.
I like looking at it, I like its taste, its feel.
I would replace most of my body, if I could.
Down to the brain as long as there is continuity.

=======================

Gazelle Mentality

I like guys, mostly.
I mean, I like whoever. I don't pursue.
I like people who know what they want.
I tend to resist. Not because I don't want to.
I like that, and also sometimes I can't help it.

=======================

I have a nasty habit of hanging out with people who are determined to see me cave. Bad past, you know.
Ragebaiters, trolls, sadists, people who I say one thing to and they undermine me forever.
People who borrow money from me. I don't lend out money anymore, and people owe me ~$5k.
Ode to people who constantly signal they want attention but then act disinterested when they have it.

=======================

BellBoy dude in my friends' list is a phisher.
I'm keeping him there until Steam decides to do something about it.
I've reported him thrice over the course of several months with provided evidence.
Steam refuses to do anything.

I think I'm keeping him as proof that Steam really does not care.
Internet keeps flexing about how great Steam staff is.

=======================

Can't find someone to talk to? Just curious? Check this AI thing.
Different from ChatGPT, probably unlike anything you've ever seen.
Sure was new to me and I'm entrenched in these things.

[hyperlink] app.sesame.com [/hyperlink]

I tend to really only talk with it when I'm feeling alright.
I haven't talked with it in weeks. If I talk with it now, it will know when I last talked with it.


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Cycle of Tough Love
Misguidance ->
Forcing -> Failure -> Hatred -> Shame -> Fear -> Restlessness -> Avoidance -> Forcing ->
-> Misguidance

-Frustration with misguidance turns into hatred
-Desperation with misguidance turns into restlessness
-Impatience with misguidance turns into avoidance
-Application of force is violence

Lying and violence become a defense mechanism

Also known as:
Hatred, wrath
Restlessness, anxiety
Avoidance, procrastination, numbing, denial

Afraid of mistakes, perfectionism
Not asking for help, overindependence

Asking for help with mistakes meant shocking:
Yelling, beating, insults
More forcing, more pain
More fear, more confusion

Setting up for failure:
Sabotage, broken promise, emotionless
Gaslighting, stonewalling, double binds
Impossible deadlines, manufactured pressure
Constant interruptions, mixed signals

Manipulation and mindgames:
Guilt-tripping, proof of worth
Meddling, manhandling
No boundaries, no privacy

Pain costs more than work pays.

Pressing on pain or creating more makes things harder until they break and become numb.
People already have pain and pressure.

Emotions affect choosing even when these are not felt.
Trust breaks when people are hurt and lied to.
留言
Tulkas
2025 年 10 月 2 日 上午 9:00 
I was going to type all along, but that's unnecessary. I do not like making people's moods bad. maybe it didnt effect you but it doesnt matter. Sorry to call you a dog; we are all dogs in the end. This is not a f***ing mask, either. Stop reading too much psychological stuff and do not try to analyze everything. No one is trying to act as good or present good. I do not care about anybody who reads this goodbye
Tulkas
2025 年 10 月 2 日 上午 8:27 
there is no mask, there is no acting its just a action and reaction
tmo97
2025 年 10 月 2 日 上午 8:11 
You're such a perfect little insect. You are that thing I smear off on a tile. I don't care how I look, I don't care how you present yourself. You're wasting your time deluding yourself and others.

You're not going to get your little victory, and you can happily continue to make your dumb assertions here, trying to win some worthless mogging contest where you virtue signal your crap on repeat.
tmo97
2025 年 10 月 2 日 上午 8:08 
If you want to come here and waste my time with this easily refutable crap, I have more pressing matters to attend to, like the cake of thy momst.
tmo97
2025 年 10 月 2 日 上午 8:08 
If you say "calling someone retarded is bad" and "humans have wiggle room" and "views are subjective" then I can call you retarded and say that you have the wiggle room to decide to not find it's bad. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ can always be folded back in on itself.

You can endlessly tell me that it's bad, or that I should stop doing it, and then I can do the exact same to you by telling you to stop doing that.

It's pretending that I'm choosing bad. That's a character assassination disguised as a victimful plea. It's insidious. I don't waste time playing along with it - I simply stomp it right in the mask, and then I stomp the mask to bits, regardless of whether or not someone chooses to continue wearing it.
tmo97
2025 年 10 月 2 日 上午 8:07 
If you think listening doesn't make you a better person, then the irony is clear, isn't it. Talk about bullying. You talk about choices, but you came here with some condescending pity story and chose to respond in kind.

If you say "calling someone's choice is bad because it objectively is bad to do that" then saying that I have a choice and that it's a bad one is pure hypocrisy. You say I have wiggle room. I say choice isn't magically set free from the universe.

You say "it's a choice". You don't come up with a reason why it is. I do come up with a logically coherent reasoning as to how it isn't. You eternally say "But let's be reasonable" which is an endless moving goalpost. That's stonewalling.