Welcome to the Famous WB (Willy Bonka ain't got ♥♥♥♥ on us)

I've been meaning to make this post for quite a while, and I've finally collected all my thoughts in order to write this, so I would REALLY appreciate it if this goes unedited, unlike my last post cuz that one was a joke in case some of you didn't get it :P

now then, not all of you know me and I don't know all of you, so I'm writing this, for the most part, for those of you who are and who have been on my friend's list, although part of this post will be addressed to the whole clan.

Speaking of the clan, what I've been wanting to talk about for the longest time now is how I feel that I have been responsible for the downfall of the clan. I'm not the kind of person who is afraid to talk about sensitive matters or afraid to admit my own mistakes. So I want to express all my feelings here, and will do so in a way that is easy to understand.

Now I first met members of WB on the Newbs tf2 server #5. When slowly but surely I began accumulating WB members in my friends list, I felt the desire to be in the clan more and more. It's like when you were in high school, and there was that one group of kids that you REALLY wanted to be a part of. Well, I had the same feeling with WB, and thus I joined.

Now, also like in high school, I'm sure most of us remember when we finally did aquire our own group, and sometimes a person or two starts to immigrate into the gorup, and not everyone feels onboard with it. It makes the group feel too different, as if we all prefer the group the way it is and prefer it to stay the way it is. I was not greeted with such feelings as these, but I do feel that my joining the clan forever changed it, and not so much for the best.

In the beginning tf2 was all we played, and in my opinion I think that within the core group of members, everyone was having a great time. But then I convinced Kindrad that we should start hosting a minecraft server that we could all play on. It was also there that I introduced Kindrad and also Ikaboom to the clan, both of whom are very loved members and I feel proud to have brought them here. However, this was the beginning of the end for me, because I wanted to accomplish something that I was unable to accomplish with a previous group of friends on a minecraft server: speaking frankly, a commune within the server. Now communes can only really be started by well...forcing the community to abide to those rules. At first we were all cooperating and working together, but then when things didn't go "my way" I began to act more and more like a control freak. So much so that I felt that I had begun something that wouldn't be easy to stop: I had began deterring my new friends away from me. Things were said behind other's backs, people were offended, and we began drifting away from each other.

I felt that even some people that I DIDN'T offend were casted away or offended for other reasons. One that never leaves my mind is former member GarlicShells. Garlic was a really cool kid, but whatever happened happened and he has left most of us. I really miss our times with him, I miss our times with all of us. The clan does not feel anything like it did when the server was alive, when we were ALL having fun, and frankly, it is all my fault. And I feel like ♥♥♥♥ because of this, and what makes me feel even MORE like ♥♥♥♥ is that I repeated my harmful behaviors in Dota 2.

Dota was another game that was introduced to some of us, and again I wanted us to enjoy this game and enjoy time together. However, I got really into the game, and to date it is the game that i take most seriously. Now not everyone played it as often as I did, so we were not all on the same skill level. So when I began to play with members who didn't have as much practice in the game, I would get angry or even insult my friends because of their performance or they were playing in a way I didn't approve of. I know that i personally hurt more friends this way, and I felt even more distant from everyone because most of the group would play together late at night, when I'm not allowed to be ont he computer, so I was interacting less and less with everyone.

I had really lost sight about what friends are for: they're for having fun! I had the thought of winning clouding my mind, and I let that take priority in my mind instead of trying to have fun playing a game.

That video that i linked in my last announcement did have points that I wanted to get across, one of them being that we all have lost good friends because we ♥♥♥♥♥♥ up big time at some point, and then we really REALLY miss those friends in the future. I still have mostly everyone in my friend's list, and I still play with a good few of them, but I really want what we had going before...I want those good, fun times again, but I blame my immaturity and my personal development (or lack of development) to my behaviors in the past.

So, with my heart in my hands, I really want to say sorry to everyone. I have apologized in the past, but it was not enough to change everyone's feelings, which is why I have written all of this.

I'm sorry Soarin for the bad times you had ont he minecraft server

I'm sorry spitty for treating you like ♥♥♥♥ that time we had a dota match together, you know the one.

I'm sorry Cheese for...whatever it was that i did to you. I would like you to know however that I feel that i have been treated unfairly by you, because when you wanted to ♥♥♥♥ around in a dota match it was all peaches and cream, but when I wanted to do the same then it wasn't alright. I feel personally offended by being put in your block list, but if I've done something to really deserve that then by all means please tell me. I deserve an explanation from you, and you shouldn't feel afraid to not tell me, if that is even what you're feeling

And please, if I got anything wrong or if anyone wants to say anything, please tell me, if there's ♥♥♥♥ that needs to be told me then please do not hold back. I have made efforts to try to get everyone back together, for example buying many of us copies of a game, and to see that fail is really demotivating for me. But I hope that this post has some effect on everyone

-Peace everyone,
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