Looking for miku miku dance modelers

I so bad wanted to be natsuki from doki doki Literature club in vrchat already has two rude authors already rudely say no to me (MMD model makers only! Sorry.. even though i do need a moderator or two) and not very many ddlc model search results on deviantart and whenever there is for natsuki its privatized which TICKS me off!!! and alot of non doki and real life searches everytime i look up “natsuki model” makes it 20x HARDER for me to find one!!