Hey, my name is Katelynn, and if you're from the nZombies server you might know me as being formerly KingKaiju666 the creator of the paranoia series. I was directly involved in this situation. When I joined nZombies, it was because I was passionate about a gamemode and I wanted to support it. I met genuinely good people in that server, those being Wavy, Owlie, Multinett, and Laby. I was able to make friends with them, and I had a genuinely good time and appreciated the fact that this was the first online friend group I actually enjoyed going back to and hanging out with. Jax being invited to my server was a mistake (That's where those screenshots came from), but I wouldn't have known that since this was before anyone knew anything about this. Me and her ended up hanging out a lot and playing L4D2. I thought I was playing with a friend. But come to find out she was only observing me to adopt my personality and gain my trust. If you don't know I have Aspergers, which is on the Autism Spectrum. It's a social disorder which makes it difficult for me to read certain Social Cues and Situations properly. I was also going through my own mental conflict coming out as trans, and she took advantage of that. My brain going through changes left me in a vulnerable state where I could be easily manipulated and influenced. She basically had control over me, and almost caused me to fully believe I was someone I'm not. I was always a good person, and I always hated conflict. I always fully appreciated those who respected me, and had intentions on fully respecting them. I was her toy to play with, a tool used to extract info from people. Anyone I may have hurt because of this I genuinely apologize to you individually. Wavy, you're a good person and don't deserve any of this. You may come off a little awkward in certain social situations, but that's ok. Life is a learning experience for all of us. Owlie, I genuinely apologize to you as well for what I did. We had a lot of genuine fun together on nZombies, breaking my maps lol. You also take pride in your work and that's a good thing, use that to your advantage. It can allow you to be a lot more confident in the long run and do even better at the things you do. Your YouTube channel is a good goal to go for, you do get hyper aware of being in front of a camera from what I remember, but that's ok. It takes practice to become more confident in yourself on camera. Just remember to be yourself and don't let anyone bring you down. Multinett, I also am genuinely sorry for any stress and anxiety this caused you, your from turkey, and I'm sure you never thought you would have to deal with anything like this in your life. It can be scary, and confusing. And Laby I genuinely apologize to you. I completely disrespected you on the way I acted over this situation, I was a fool for doing what I did and said. I always enjoyed testing features with you before they released, as well as playing my configs with you. You were right as well when saying "don't get attached to people on this platform because they can become a sh*tter at any moment".

Jax is a scary person and should not be underestimated, she was capable of controlling me to do what she wanted. This was her goal, to get a whole server to hate me, break apart a friend group I cared about, and leave me with nothing. She goes back to these reuploads to laugh at the comments, this is what she wants. She wants reactions, don't give them to her. Don't give her what she wants.


Edit:
I need to add this, I'm sure if you are in private nZombies, you are aware of the message i sent Owlie. I just realized something. Yes that was me thinking it, but at the same time it wasn't. Jax somehow manipulated my brain to think that way. When i saw she left a message in my server and dipped, is when all the ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ regret and emotions hit me. my heart started pounding and i started sweating. i was thinking to myself "who the ♥♥♥♥ was i hanging around with!" "Why did i side with them?!" "Why the hell did i do that!?" That's when it hit me like I REALLY ♥♥♥♥♥♥ up. My heart is pounding just typing this.

I'm getting back into making ♥♥♥♥ in nZombies, and starting fresh without any negative influence around me. I'm actually scared thinking of that ♥♥♥♥ right now.

I was proud of my configs, proud of my SFX pack, and happy with the group i made. And one person single handedly caused me to get rid of all of it, and any backups i had in less than a year. i cleared my google drive, deleted my backup folders on my pc, deleted ♥♥♥♥ from my youtube. like what the ♥♥♥♥.

I blocked jax on everything, and unblocked everyone else involved. If you ever want to get a real group back together just let me know. I miss the friend group i had, i miss looking into the nzombies servers every day.