This map feels SO OVERMAPPED for a ballad, there were so many ultra fast spams which weren't representative of the song. Also the timing of the notes is decent but there is still ROOM for improvement. The placements of the spams also felt weird: some stacks of notes looked like spams and then they weren't and this happened too the other way. Since this is your first chart I have to say it's quite decent and it's playable, but I hope this post helps you improve your charts. ^^