"I miss him so much, im so sorry for everything i said i dont know what went into my mind when i wished you to hell over the dumbest ♥♥♥♥, i cant fix this and im so lost its so hard to understand why you had to leave me so early, im Never gonna get our momments back we did so much together but we didn't do enough i wish i participated so much more, i wish i could have held your hand just 1 more year. why did you have to damage me like that? my mental stability is gone. i have been getting alittle help dad, i had the urge to take my own life a couple years ago that feeling sits in the back of my every now and then, but im scared and i dont know what to do, the day we lost you i was abble to ride my bike for the first time in my life i was having a fun time the paramedic who was diverting me was amazing i didn't get to thank him for what he did for me leaving me $100 worth of cars i just wish i could have thanked him. they day you passed i didn't cry was the day i got PTSD,ADHD,ADD i cant believe it ♥♥♥♥♥♥ me up so bad im so unhappy in life, its no fun and its not a game but i cant change that. Hopefully ill get to speak to you one more time, we lost all our pictures of you to ur fammily when they stole the house from us i cant believe they did that toke the money for them selves, we where homless for years surviving off of takeout and my sisters basement. The day we got kicked out of the house my mother was walking Bear(The Dog) and he got lose and ran and wouldn't stop we couldnt find him im sorry we let himr un like that, we had him for so long he was our bestfriend and mom lost him, im still crying to this day. I love you"