My constant self-loathing makes me feel nauseous if every day I could compensate for my 100% depression 1% happiness, then I could live more than 10,000 years. Because I want to end every second of my pain. If it is unreasonable to live, then I began to think that it is reasonable to die. In the face of death, everything that touches life is meaningless. If you want to be saved, die.