Thinking of you, and the games we played on PD2 back in 2015.

Well, I was going to stream today (i'll probably try anyway) and I for some reason decided to come creep on your profile and tell you how much i missed playing together. And then I realized we had just passed 4 years since you left and I have been an absolute mess now for the past 20 minutes. I knew it was coming up, but I think i just avoided it because of all the stupid issues going on in my life right now.

It really sucks, cause literally a month ago i was essentially in the same boat, and literally three days ago i told my coworkers "Legit no one gives a damn, they'll get over it." and it finally clicked in my brain that no, people won't just get over it, because I have yet to get over you being gone.

Anyway, I miss you, dude. Thanks for being a highlight in my video gaming existence.

he is not on vacation , he died 3 years ago. i miss him too every day, every minute....

It will be painful to see your name on my friends list every time now, even though it seems like you could come back online at any moment and ask to hop into a game or chat about things like we used to. The digital age is really terrible about ghosts.
Maybe you're not even really gone, and you're just out on vacation, though of course I don't believe that at all. The digital age is terrible for closure, too.

I'll try not to be sad about seeing your name all the time, though. I'm quite sure that you'd have hated that. Instead, I'll try to remember what a kind person you were.
Wherever you are now, I hope you are at peace.
-K

Yesterday, I logged on again for the first time in quite some time, and found you'd been gone for some time as well, and I didn't even know. To everyone else, it's been more than three years, but to me, it's as fresh as yesterday.

I know it's not about me, but I'm sorry I simply disappeared for so long. I think you must have known it wasn't because of you, but I also think it must have hurt anyway. No matter what was happening in my own life, I should have logged on once and said "hello" anyway. I wish I'd understood what you'd meant when you sent me that last "Goodbye". I don't know if I could have convinced you not to go, but I could have at least said "goodbye" back.

miss you, dude.