34 year old retired gamer who grew up what he loved doing most.
playing video games and making friends.

my light has faded. the will to move on is being unraveled.
i met many friends. but often will learn. that they wont last forever.
met many good people. and bad.
people like alex. i met on habbo hotel. later met him on killing floor. met some other good friends.
but eventually due to his ego split up.
even met a group of romanians. and a nice african kid. great friends at first. until i realized it was never about playing games together as a team. but as a unit. efficiency over fun. forced to do stuff i did not like or love.
met more groups like this whole dutch friend group. great people. until eventually ego overtook them. i was mostly used. abused. yelled at. and taken advantage of. unloved. i left them.
now i met a new group. the one i even called my little family. great people. but sometimes i feel like im breaking them apart more and more. trust was earned. but some broke trust. and abused said trust. to either defend them or help them.

every group i met eventually broke apart on its own.
or because i was involved.
no one would ever. give love to a tool. merely to use it.