When I was a kid. A dream was sold to me that everything was possible. When I reached adulthood, reality hit me like a 18-wheeler.

The less the average person knows the better off they are. Can they handle the truth? What do they really need to know? Carefree is productive, good business.

引用自 Thermal Lance：

When I was a kid. A dream was sold to me that everything was possible. When I reached adulthood, reality hit me like a 18-wheeler.

What is it about turning 18 was it that gave you this idea?

引用自 Doctor Go-Go：

The less the average person knows the better off they are. Can they handle the truth? What do they really need to know? Carefree is productive, good business.

Very sad.

What in the world hardens you? What makes you cold and apathetic?

Other people and their ♥♥♥♥♥♥ up agendas.
The self righteous ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ that ties people up every which way and distorts what is harm and what is not.
ie economical slavery is considered okay.
Being poisoned as a way of life is considered okay.

Telling someone to 'naff' off is not considered okay.

I am not hardened, I am not cold, apathetic? i don't know but I am just very tired now so that maybe it.

I could ask you the same uwu

Feeling cold and apathetic can be linked to medical conditions like anemia or hypothyroidism and psychological factors like depression, or lifestyle issues such as poor diet and sleep. People are hardened by a combination of difficult life experiences, such as trauma, betrayal, and loss, which can lead them to become less emotionally affected and more closed off to the world and others around them.

This emotional "hardening" can also stem from a conscious choice to resist certain feelings, regulations including suppression of human rights or messages, racism, unchecked stress, overwork, or a history of not receiving adequate emotional support.

When I was in school, I thought everyone would realize upon graduation that it was time to grow up, because "now it's for real".

Heh, biggest mistaken idea of my life.

Anyway, I'm not coldly apathetic, but rather warmly selfish.
Yes, there is a difference.

引用自 Grendalcat：

When I was in school, I thought everyone would realize upon graduation that it was time to grow up, because "now it's for real".

Heh, biggest mistaken idea of my life.

Anyway, I'm not coldly apathetic, but rather warmly selfish.
Yes, there is a difference.:VBCOOL:

What is the difference? Reminds me of individualism.

i stopped growing when i was like 12, i am 150cm tall

引用自 ItIsFrog：

引用自 Grendalcat：

When I was in school, I thought everyone would realize upon graduation that it was time to grow up, because "now it's for real".

Heh, biggest mistaken idea of my life.

Anyway, I'm not coldly apathetic, but rather warmly selfish.
Yes, there is a difference.

What is the difference? Reminds me of individualism.

The difference is that I feel empathy for the problems of others, but not enough to make my own life harder. I can see the suffering, and do nothing about it if necessary.

引用自 ItIsFrog：

引用自 Thermal Lance：

When I was a kid. A dream was sold to me that everything was possible. When I reached adulthood, reality hit me like a 18-wheeler.

What is it about turning 18 was it that gave you this idea?

What made me. The current me. Is that very realisation that the world wasn't as "fair" or exciting than they tried to make me believe. "Everything is possible" was a lie. I had, and still have at some degree, severe issues to adapt to adulthood. While my parents ARE very good people. They unfortunately overprotected me because they almost lost me when I was 2 and that left a permanent scar on their mind.

What followed is a complete mess of drug abuse, violence and toxic relationships. Which I fortunately managed to pull myself out of.

Flash forward several years later. Here I am. A very flawed person but at least I didn't turn straight out evil. So, I guess there is a silver lining there.

I think my biggest 'drive' is just the experience, the mistakes I've commited, all the social suisides when it comes to relationships with people, romantical or not. I refuse to ever repeat it, be it by being closed off or just somewhat ignorant. I don't think I'm cold, at least I'd like to believe so no matter how ironic my current nickname makes it be. I think I'm more distrusfful and distanced towards strangers, but I am far from apathetic. I've learnt, and still am learning, from the pain and troubles my own mistakes brought me. Of course, It's not just that. I have gotten plenty of help and pampering from people around, which I appreciate, especially for their advice and insight how not to keep falling in this negative loop.

The computer only part of the internet for filled with bums before I got the chance to experience what my brother did. Sh*ts a wasteland of bots and algorithms if you’re not aware of the problems of the internet of today you’ll survive but it really sucks when you get down to it.

引用自 salamander：

i stopped growing when i was like 12, i am 150cm tall

Im american, about how many AR-15's tall would that make you?